Sunday, August 29, 2010

*sighs.

I am currently not in a very creative state, made obvious by the post title. HARH. I want to blog, but not right now, coz at the moment I'm wearing sneakers in my bedroom going alternatively from cleaning up --> watching funny YouTube videos (I'm a YouTube junkie, seriously. And to think that I've been deprived of it ever since the internet at my dorm in Egypt went all I-don't-want-to-connect-you-to-the-world for, ugh, TOO long is just... incomprehensible.)  --> jumping around, hoping that that counts as exercise after the massive amount of food I've been preparing before my delicacy hibernation period in Egypt --> attempting to dance like Korean pop artists (and failing miserably) --> blogging --> REPEAT.

But I have things to tell, so look forward to:

1) The Dodol Incident. 
2) My right feet that went missing.
3) My attempt in trying to redeem myself on my past music-related failures.
4) Family, in general.
5) Self realization.
6) Other craps that you'll read anyway. Haha.

P/S: I can play Hey Soul Sister on guitar now. Okay, its easy, so anyone, even a beginner like me who breathes a sigh of relief upon seeing chord diagrams without a B-chord in it, can play this.

But I want a ukelele. Knew I should've bought the orange one I saw in Wangsa Walk(?) Wangsa Maju Walk(?), whateverrrrr (give up already) that was sold in Yamaha for 75MYR. Cheap what meh. But if only there was a nicer colour that doesn't resemble my alma mater boarding school's outing tees so much. Haha. -___-"

And WTV happened to me baking a rainbow cake? *gasps! 

Sunday, August 22, 2010

Going Mainstream.




As you can see... I changed my blog's name. Just because its true. LOL. You see, some people try too hard to be unique. But the thing is, I think I'm happy being one of the majority. Finally. Back then I tried quite hard at finding something that a lot others have no knowledge about, like an unsigned underground band, and I took quite a liking at boasting to other people about what I know.

Even better when they, in turn, like what I like as well. I remember once, during the age of Myspace (LOL) where almost every profile page I went to had a long - and I mean, reeeeaaaaallllyyyyy longggg - list of musicians on that box on the left side, under Music.

I never did that. But a lot of people I know did. Its okay if you're really into those musicians, but the thing is about these people is that they only know ONE song coming from at least 3/4 of those artistes, and then they go around telling everyone how cool the band is, and take comfort when someone comments: "Kool gila kaw layan band sipolan sipolan."

Contoh la. Its actually not very far from what I did, so thinking back I thought: What was I thinking?

Why was it sooo important that I come out as someone who's different than a lot other? 

So, nowadays I don't bother. What if you tell me I'm cliche? I'm proud. There's nothing to be embarrassed about favouring things that half the population (hyperbolically speaking) of the world are interested in as well. What if you tell me that I got my ideas off someone else? Well, maybe I did. Is that so wrong? As long as I'm abiding copyright laws, then I think I'll be okay.

You can choose to be turned off at someone when they took to liking something you liked first (if thats even possible) because by then you're no longer a minority, or perhaps get pissed when someone tells you you're unoriginal.

But me? I'm happier not caring. Its easier, too. Wanna know something else? The majority always WINS. :-)


PS: The picture early on? Well thats because I'm disappointed that they're stopping over Indonesia and Singapore(?) but not Malaysia. WHY?! And BTW, how TRUE is this??:


 Haha!


Asians FTW.

Obviously, guys with a bit of Asian blood, or has pure Asian blood flowing all throughout his body, is more good looking. Agree?

Exhibit 1: Harry Shum Jr. 
(Chinese American)


Yes, you Gleeks would recognize this guy fo sho yo!
Awesomeee dancer. Proof: Stars in two Step Up movies (the 2nd and upcoming 3rd installment), Stomp The Yard and You Got Served.
AND he was the silhouette for the famed iPod commercial.
RADDD rightttt?


Exhibit 2: Dennis Oh, short for Dennis Joseph O'Neil
(American + Korean)


Honestly enough, I have never even watched any of the shows that this guy's starred in.
What happened was my YouTube addiction accidentally led to a video of him.
Apparently not all OCDs prove to be deadly. I found a heartthrob! :-P

Wanna know something thats enough to make me like the guy?
He looks hella good in suits. And we all know I'm biased when this happens to be the case.



Exhibit 3: Jon Foo
(Irish + Chinese)


Yessss. Just knew this guy's name yesterday, after watching TEKKEN. Which in my opinion is a so-so movie, where the villain is  defeated wayyyy too easily. Its like watching Ghost Rider all over again.

BUT any bad movie, if not too bad, can be saved by one good looking hero.
Note that I didn't mention heroin, because the heroin in this movie seriously needs better pants.
Or PANTS. Period.

And is it me, or does he kinda resemble KHJ a bit? I don't see it in the above pictures, but in the movie.
Hmmm. Maybe KHJ is beginning to haunt me. Not that that's a bad thing. HAHAH!

And BTW, he looks good drenched in blood:


In this day and age where people are slowly starting to believe in vampires, its good to have this advantage.
LMAO.


So thats all. I'd mention more, but there's a guest downstairs and I need to make myself present and try not to pull a face when / if they ask about Egypt. UGH.


Saturday, August 21, 2010

All-Star.

Honestly, I can't even remember the last time I wore Converse. Especially since all the rempits single-handedly menjatuhkan the brand name. LOL. Not literally, but you have to admit, we would always refrain from buying things that makes us look rempit-like. And when our outfits accidentally resembles one, and your friend mentions : "You nampak macam rempit sikit pakai macam ni." PANG PANG PANG PANG! Serious slapping high-kick (or some other major karate movements) on the face man.

For me, thats a major insult. Sorry. I'd rather you tell me that I look like Helena Bonham Carter. But, since quite a while I've been wanting these:



 Black low top:




Red high top:



Why? Just because.
MUAHAHAHAHA.


Its kinda annoying that I'm posting little by little, huh? I'd love to write a full post (which is really my specialty), but I don't have that mood yet, and I wouldn't want to do it half-heartedly.

Till later. (Or maybe in another six hours. LOL.)

KHJ Strikes Again.

I kenot tekit enimo ok. I have officially become one of those girls who squeals at the sight of adorable Korean boys. And I'm not bothered to even feel embarrassed about it anymore. Yay!




Pic 1 & 2: Adorable MAX.
Pic 3: LMAO. Seen this sooo many times, but it never gets less cute.
Pic 4: *cooooooos. ^^
Pic 5: Comel. Full stop.
Pic 6: Pretty much how I've imagined my prince charming all these years. Though I much prefer black horses (obvs influenced by Anna Sewell's "Black Beauty") and jet black hair.


Okay will stop now. I'm actually bored... and I want to sleep, but the software update for my MacBook is taking FOREVERRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR. -_____-"


Less than an hour till sahur.


Die.

Fujifilm Instax 210.

Come to mamaaaa!

Tuesday, August 17, 2010

A New Post Has Come.

Ahhhhh finally another post. Pardon the Celine Dion pun. If you know what I mean. Haha jyeah. The bad thing is that all I can think about is sinking my nose into the book I'm currently reading: "Beastly" by Alex Flinn, and eventually fall asleep. 



And then when people try to wake me up for sahur I'll say something that even I myself is unable to comprehend.  Complete with random hand movements, mind you. And like, 5 minutes before adhan subuh, I'd grab a water bottle next to me, literally, take about three gulps, and fall into a temporary coma. Until adhan, of course. Ok well, maybe 30 minutes later than the adhan... but whatever.

I think I've touched the topic of TV series justtttt about enough in the last two posts. LOL. So I'm going to refrain myself from talking about such topic... with the exception of a worthy mention that Kim Hyun Joong will be playing the role of the main character in upcoming Korean series: Mischievous Kiss, adapted from a famous manga Itazura na Kiss.
Hell. If I knew of this earlier, I would've downloaded all of Itazura na Kiss' scanlations, and NOT having to purchase them. -____-" Mind you, the same happens to other mangas that have been adapted into TV series' or movies. Example: Hana Yori Dango. Yes, smart people these publishing companies. They just know people would go into a frenzy, and decide to license said mangas.

SAD. That I have to spend approx. 100MYR for two volumes of Itazura na Kiss. And to think there are loads moreeee. And order the 3rd and 4th volume from Amazon coz I can't find it any bookstores. Yes. I checked Kinokuniya. If you happened to be searching for Itazura na Kiss as well, then I'm sorry. Coz I'm that b**** you cursed for nabbing them off the shelves.

MUAHAHA. *clears throat.

And just to show off more polaroid pictures (hah!), here's a photo of the Squall Leonhart plushie I purchased from Amazon. 


Taken *literally* upon waking up. Coz I have nothing to look forward in the morning like that. Or perhaps there is an off-chance that I was half-asleep when this photo was taken, and I was actually picturing plushie Squall as, errr.... non-plushie Squall.

Or something.

Other than that, I am becoming more of an Android fangirl by the day. Haha. Yes, when most people opt for a Blackberry or an iPhone, I boast about owning a HTC Hero, that seems a thousand times more relevant with Android Market, than without. Coz without it, that phone of mine is just a shameless piece of iPhone competitor. 

Now I have all sorts of apps. My favs include FXcamera (yes, this app is responsible for the polaroid-like pictures above, and those of Toy Camera-like ones, like this picture I took of our break fast feast just last night:-


Say it with me now: NICEEEEE. Ahah, okay enough.

Theres also this app called Google Sky Map. Obviously enough, since Androids are powered by Google. Lots kinda rad, in a way that its like Google Earth, but instead, its the map of the sky, and it helps you to find constellations, stars, and planets and such. All I have to do is point my phone to the sky, and look. And hope that for once the pollution would clear up so I can actually SEE some stars.

SERIOUSLY. -_____-" Starry nights just don't exist anymore,

Other app that brings me joy is Laputa Book Reader, coz it kinda transforms my phone into a miniature Kindle. Only even better, coz I don't have to pay a single penny to download a book. The only bad thing about this is that it stresses my eyes.

Aside from the aforementioned topics, since I've returned, I've received a lot of questions similar to this:

"So... how do you like it there in Egypt?"

I always don't know how to answer, though I ought to have prepared myself with one, considering that my parents' friends confirm2 tanya punya.

My answer always seems to be an uncertain: "Okayyy."

Coz in a way, thats kinda exactly how I feel. I don't hate studying there in Egypt, but I don't necessarily have to LOVE it either. I don't know how many times I've mentioned this, but I'm gonna do so again:

I'm grateful that I've been given the opportunity to study medicine. And under a scholarship. Which is, super awesome in my opinion since thats one thing I don't have to depend on my parents' income on. They've supported my everything, and its a nice feeling knowing that you're taking a few weight of their shoulders, though parents won't necessarily address supporting my education as a "burden", but you know what I mean.

I'm even more thankful for the close companions and friendships that I've built over the time.

But honestly speaking, people shouldn't come to me if they expect to hear good words concerning Egypt. I guess its just not my kind of place, y'know. I can manage to LIVE, of course. But, when I come back home, and I hear the stories my friends tell me of UiTM and such, I can't help but feel a pang of envy.

I've always wanted to experience that kind of university life. Where classes are something you enjoy, and you make friends with people from different faculties, you drive to class, you hang out after class, etc etc. And its not like that at all in Egypt.

Its a university I study at, but the experience is just. Well, not what I expected. Classes are okay, the lecturers are good. But the only friends I make are ones studying in the same field, and even a lil bit more unfortunate: ALL Malays.

Coz one of the main reason I want to study overseas is so that I could make friends that are not so close to home, y'know? Thats why England have been my choice, even when my parents asked me to consider France, coz English have always been one of my strongest points, and it'd be nice to use it fully in a conversation. 

And the idea of an after-class joint is well, home. -____-" Now, I'm not the most active person on Earth, and I might even be one of the laziest, but trust me when I say that I enjoy walking around. You ask me to go somewhere, and most probably my answer would be "YES". Coz I enjoy that kind of thing. So, honestly, if I were studying here in Malaysia, most probably you won't catch me going straight home after class. At the very least I'm gonna drop by three 7 Elevens in Shah Alam to find one that actually has a functional Slurpee machine to gulp down.

Oh and congrats to my dear sister Lisa, who will be studying in Manchester for... 2 years. Yeah. I'm ecstatic for her, yes I am. But I can't help but go green with envy as well. I mean, I was the one whose been targeting to study in England since I was 10-11 years old, even making it my number one goal, and main reasons behind, basically, a lot of major decisions, one being: enroll in a boarding school when I was initially one of the main people against it.

I was the girl who doodled "London" all over her ring file filled with exam question papers in Standard Six. I was the girl who always, always make it out a point to write "London" / "England" / "UK" on a piece of paper and place it beneath a transparent desk wrapper in high school at the beginning of every year. I was the girl who cried her heart out, but never told anyone, when she found out (around 3 am) that she got a scholarship to the Middle East instead of the one place she's always wanted to go. And literally banged the laptop against the mattress.

But in the end, my sister, who has never expressed much desire to study there until she nearly graduated with a diploma, got the chance.

*sighs. Life can be unfair, but, when I think about how there has to be a reason why God fated you to something, it helps calm me.

And... despite everything, she's my sister, my flesh and blood, and DNA (haha) after all, and I'm always gonna be more happy FOR her, than envious OF her. 

Anddddd thats about enough I think. In less than 2 hours, its gonna be time for sahur. So, till later readers! (If you even exist anymore.)

BYE!

Friday, August 13, 2010

Even More Delayed Ramblings.

Wow. The internet's extra shhhhh---- Oh. Its the month of Ramadhan, its better for everyone if I just kept that word to myself. *grins.

SO I reallllyyy miss blogging, but it turns out the only way I'd get to connect to the internet is through the family's laptop, and tu pun ikut nasib coz Maxis' broadband suckkksss and since MacBooks can be a pretty picky piece of metal, well. Lagi bertambah-tambah lembab la kan. So I stopped trying altogether.

And well, blogging through a laptop thats not your own is not as satisfying. Well, AFTER you get your own laptop that is. Mind you, I only received a laptop coz I study overseas. My parents won't tolerate me having it without reason. And thats one of the many reasons I love them. They don't spoil us. 

As much. LOL. They spoil us, jussssstttt enough.

What have I been doing, say? Well even I'm not sure, honestly. LOL. I haven't seen my friends much after the first week I'm here. Probably because I super malas nak contact anyone. Except if you tegur me on Twitter. THEN you'll perhaps hear from me. Coz I'm getting more and more active by the day.

And I update my ongoings there more frequently than I do anywhere else, so if you think my oh-so-very-interesting life is worthy of following, then follow yours truly at:

@nadhrahzainal

I KNOW RIGHT. As you get older, you tend to use your actual name for everything. Emails, etc etc. I think if Twitter existed like, 5-6 years ago, and I had an account, you'll probably have to follow me by the name @snickerdoodle, or @pokemonfangirl_8 or something. LMAO.

I MEGA ULTRA LOVE POKEMON. Don't judge.

And about my infatuation with Kim Hyun Joong, YES that is still going on. If on the off chance that the internet connection is reaaaalllyyy gooooood, like, YouTube finishes streaming in 30 seconds gooooodddd, then you'll probably find me glued in front of the laptop downloading as much We Got Married episodes as I can.

Coz I'm obsessed like that.

WGM actually shows a lot more of his real side, and I loveeee him more because of it. None of that Yoon Ji Hoo 'I'm always sulking' kinda stuff.

1) He dislikes couple tshirts. AHA! Same here. I despise couple tshirts as well. Okay, honestly, I can tolerate if a couple wears something of the same design with different colours, perhaps. But when the tshirts are identical, then well. You're definitely asking for some ass-whooping. And none of those connected tshirt nonsense either. Y'know, where the girl wears a heart tied like a balloon, and the guy wears one tshirt with a picture of a boy, holding on to the string of the heart balloon, blahblahblah. 

Those kind of PDA (Public Display of Affections) are just disturbing. In my opinion.

2) He's super honest. I mean, yes, sometimes he's honest to the point of making people terasa, but sometimes that can be a good thing. A lot of people nowadays just say what they they assume the other person wants to hear. And there's not a lot of honesty in that. Its more likely that you're trying to butter the person up, and convince them to like you.

I don't like. Sure, akan kecil hati sometimes if people are honest, but I prefer that than one day konon bickering, and everything that he'd saved in his frame of mind comes out and awful things are said.

3) He's FUNNY. Now, someone with a sense of humour have always been high on my list of... ideal men(?) Coz, lets face it. Without it, then. UGH. Do I even need to say? I may not be the funniest person alive, but I'm pretty certain I know how to liven up a situation whenever necessary.

*sighs. 

I think thats its worth mentioning that someone told me the more I go on without a relationship, the higher my expectations get, and thus may result in a lifetime of disappointments, coz no one will ever be JUST right.

But I beg to differ.

If I just accept anyone that comes along, then that just makes me seem so cheap-ass. And well, I believe if my intentions are good, and that I pray hard enough, God will one day present with my perfect someone. InsyaAllah. 

Trial and error may be some people's method, but not mine. :-)

Other than obviously swooning of Kim Hyun Joong, as usual, I've been catching up with TV series. Did I mention that I just begun watching The Vampire Diaries? And Ian Somerhalder as Damon Salvatore is just so freakin' hot and lovable? And that I hate Elene with a passion? And that Stefan annoys me? Oh well now you know.

I KNOW that we're supposed to automatically LOVE the main character, in this series, being: Elena. But IDK. For some reason, I just don't fancy her. 

I've also finished Gossip Girl 3 after a dead halt halfway through some time earlier this year. And... HOW ANNOYING IS THIS SERIES GETTING?!?

I mean, SERIOUSLY. I think the only people I can tolerate in that series are Blair and Chuck. Serena's annoying as hell. JENNY. Oh-My-God. Don't make me START on her. Basically, the whole cast except Blair and Chuck (in my opinion) is insaneeeeeeeeeeeee and have no self control whatsoever.

I mean, seriously. A guy says something nice to you, face gets closer... DO YOU ALWAYS HAVE TO KISS? Eventhough before that, saying to boyfriend: "I love you, and I would never do anything with (the other guy)". Sheeeesh. Super annoying okay. THEN they do IT.

-___________-" 

No effin' self control.

Honestly speaking, if it wasn't for Blair and Chuck, I'd already fling the DVD out my bedroom window and vow to never watch an episode ever again.

Latest series is True Blood. Well, I'm not done with the first season yet, butttt one thing's certain: Wayyy TOO many sexual references + nude scenes + ehm ehm scenes + etc etc.

Useful tip: Never watch with a parent in close vicinity. Ward off any underage siblings and exile them to their respective bedrooms, and ALWAYS. I mean, ALWAYS arm yourself with the remote control in those much needed PRESS FORWARDDDDDD moments.

This can sometimes end up with you not understanding the whole story, but mehhh. Better than watching someone reaching climax, a person's bare ass, or even worse.... (Taknak cakap) An accidental and innocent decision to watch Euro Trip is enough for me. No more, please. NO MORE.

I can't even stand seeing those 'Disco Sticks' on dead people (Anatomy lab), moreover on someone all alive and well.

OKAY STOP TALKING ABOUT THAT NOW.

*breathes sigh of relief.

I should probably label this post as PG-13 now right? LOL. Well, whatevs. So I think thats about it for now, I think on my next post (so uncertain of WHEN) I'd probably share some pictures since its I take it that its boring for you to be reading all these texts, that are randomly put together.

Who else goes from talking about a much-wanted Korean man, and ends it with a topic on 'Disco Sticks'? Seriously? LMAO.

Sooooo I need to head over to my room to study, then proceed with sleeping, and... proceed with getting cranky at anyone who wakes me up for sahur, andddd next, going downstairs to the kitchen all cranky and groggy, and pour self a cup of water, and head back upstairs, and buries self in SUPER COMFORTABLE COMFORTER, and wakes up when Adhan on phone berkumandang, and then sleep again. *Fuhhh.

K bye. :-)

Wednesday, August 4, 2010

Breathe.

Ahhhh its been a long time since I posted something up here. Its kinda strange that I don't miss blogging when I'm at home, as much as I did when I was in Egypt. I have NO idea what this proves, so yeahh.

Honestly speaking, I don't get why some of my friends are bored being at home. I'm not. I mean, sure, there are those moments, but finally after years of constant reminders from my mom, I finally learned that boredom is just an excuse for being lazy.

I mean, there's soooo many things out there that you can do, but you choose not to. Be it tidying up your bookshelf or continuing your CD collection. Well. That applies to yours truly, of course.

So, for the past few days that I'm home, I haven't done many things out of the ordinary or anything. But I ate A WHOLE LOT.

I mean, seriously, FML coz I can't seem to give up on food.

Yeahhhh while other girls choose to diet and hunt for boyfriends, I give up on the idea of a relationship entirely and choose to surround myself with precious delicacies.

Speaking of delicacies, it seems like my past post on macaroons (Macaron is French) and my cravings for it had caught the attention of one guy friend. LOL. Lets just say he finally gets a taste of it, along with a few other good friends of mine.

Funny how I happen to know more about some things here more than the people who live here does. -______-"

But that may have to something to do with me missing Malaysia to an extent that I read every possible blog offering the latest happenings regarding said country. Yes. That includes food blogs. How else do I know that Whisk Cafe in Empire Gallery, Subang sells macaroons 3 months before most people in close proximity to the place does? *gerakgerakkening.

I've gotten quite a few, "Macam mana awak tau ni?" questions from Mama. LOL.

I'm not going to be able to post up any pictures of what I've been up to recently coz I haven't even transferred them from my camera. But, to sum it up.

1) Hang out with friends. Seriously, all I do is eat when I'm with these people. Bloody dangerous. Thats why I've decided to list a new rule: Hang out, then a few days to lay down, baru hang again. If not, I'm gonna be broke before I even know it. And my thighs are gonna get even larger.

RAYA is a month away. I cannot afford to look gargantuan in raya photos. ECEH. Poyo. I've OBVIOUSLY gained weight, but tak cukup keberanian to weigh myself yet. MUAHAHA.

2) Beli kain. I dare say that this is the most my family have ever spent on kain. SERIOUSLY. I'm not gonna mention any digits, but lets just say I have something by Emilio Pucci. YES. PUCCI. I LOVE THEIR PRINTS. I even made it a point once that if I ever wanted anything designer, I'd want a Pucci something.

But then again, I don't believe in designer items. Well, not until I can earn them myself. With my own money, from my own hard work, I mean. :-)

3) Spend time with family. I try to spend as much time home. And I've been hanging out with my siblings a lot. Okay well durhhh we live under the same roof, but you get what I mean rigghhhttt? ^__^ And I miss them. I can honestly say that I'm different when with friends and with family.

I TALK A LOT. Well, from what my sisters told me. Coz they always seem to tell me to shut up. With friends, yeah I talk. But.... well there's just a difference.

4) Watch Cuci the Musical. It was funny, I admit. It could've been funnier if I wasn't bloody tired from hanging out with my friends non-stop from the day before (they slept over, so literally, NON-STOP) and driving back and forth and well... if I wasn't so skeptical about Malay movies.

No, I mean, this wasn't a movie, of course. But it had that Malay film feel, y'know. I'm not degrading the creative product of my own race, just saying that I'm not a fan. This is probably the first show I've watched in Istana Budaya where I actually bothered looking at my watch every 15 minutes. It felt long, whilst in reality, its duration as all the other shows I've seen there before.

I blame it on my fatigue. Of course. But I was still able to enjoy it though. So... good enough. Haha.

5) Catching up on TV series. The first series I finished was Autumn's Concerto coz it received high praises from my sister. My opinion? Well, its okay.

I have a feeling that it kinda takes a lot to impress me nowadays. Kinda sucks. T___T IDK why.

The storyline's predictable, of course. The same can be said about many other dramas, coz COME ON, you just can't expect 100% originality, regarding anything nowadays. But I wasn't let down by it. I enjoyed the show. I more than enjoyed ogling Vanness Wu, especially in all his suit-wearing glory.

Did I ever mention y weakness for men in suits? *melts.

The second series is Boys Over Flowers. I've watched this show before, from the middle, and never had a chance to ever finish it. Its kinda fortunate that I did, coz the last time I saw the character Yoon Ji-hoo I remember thinking: "Okayyyy blond-ish Asian. PFFFT."

Now: That same dude I mocked is my favourite character in the series. Mainly because his smile is TO DIE FOR. This is the dude:

  
KIM HYUN JOONG, I'm in love. Honestly, if I see this photo BEFORE I watched the series I would've just ignored it altogether. I guess you just have to see it yourself, through the series.

My bet is you've already seen it. But mehhh whatevs.

And it also helped me realize that I have a thing for moody guys. SERIOUSLY. -______-" In the Taiwanese version of this series, I liked Hua Ze Lei. Mind you, Hua Ze Lei and Yoon Ji Hoo is the same character, only the former protrayed by Vic Zhou (Taiwan) and the latter by YES Kim Hyun Joong (Korea).
Then there's the ongoing infatuation to Jess Mariano. And John Mayer. 

See? T______________T

I don't like my own taste in men. *sighs.

Now lets forget all that. LOL. Now, I'm watching Gossip Girl season 3 (yess agak ketinggalan zaman, BOOHOO) and... a new one: The Vampire Diaries.

Ian Somerhalder is hot.

AGAIN. Moody guy. Or not so moody. But kinda broken. In a way. Do you see it? Oh okay, OMG why do I insist on making people understand my motives/reason/wtv behind anything and or everything??

-__________-"

If you're still reading this, WHOA. High level of patience you have there. Congrats. You are eligible to be on MTV Boiling Point.

6) Maxing out my credit card. YES. My dad gave me a credit card. And I spent almost 1000MYR already. 

OH-MY-GOD I am kinda freaked out okay. Coz the first charge was from Toys 'R' Us, where my sisters and I still manage to go all crazy over despite our increase in age. I mean. Who spends RM500+ in a TOY STORE?!? Apparently, we do. ZOMG. Freaking out.

Second charge: Popular bookstore. Ni I don't feel guilty. My parents know of my close kinship with books.
Third charge: A Squall Leonhart plushie. YES. I PURCHASED A SQUALL LEONHART PLUSHIE FROM AMAZON. Final Fantasy FTW. -_________-"

I've had a crush on Squall since I first knew him okay. So don't judge me. Hmf.

That was kinda all it took to reach one freaking K.

++ my phone bills lagi. AGHHHHH. Mobile networks are hell sent. I tell ya. More so when I've become quite an avid Twitter-er or Tweet-er or whatever. And I go on Facebook through my phone. And YouTube too. 

Okay Wowo. Prepare to be massacred by Ayah. FML.



Oh well. I'm all blank now. Haha. Might've something to do with the increasing stress over having to face Ayah when he gets my bills. ZOMG. Diediediediedie.

Goodbye now. I'm trying to come up with another excuse other than someone robbed me of my credit card and purchased something without my knowledge and returns it to me, so I didn't know ANYTHING about Toys 'R' Us. AND Squall Leonhart. Squall WHO?