Hah. And I tell myself I'm going to stop bingeing at three o'clock in the morning. -_____-"
I have been sleeping past 3-4 a.m. for the past few days because apparently enough, there is something the matter with my biological clock. I usually wake up around 6-8 a.m. depending on my class schedule. Thats like, a 3-4 hours. Totally not what the doctor recommends. It gets worse when I'm not having my period coz then I'll sleep after Subuh prayers, which is around 4 ++ a.m. But oh well.
Sometimes its not that I'm not sleepy, (like tonight) but because I had a big dinner last night. And unlike most people, I'm most uncomfortable sleeping on a full stomach. So I'm letting all that seafood I stuffed my face with earlier (just because a few housemates and I wanted to bring out the UiTM dentistry students staying here to taste the seafood here) get digested by my conceivably rapid metabolism. Or so I wish. *sighs. Coz right now my interval-like burps (silent, mind you. I don't know how to burp loudly.) still tastes like prawn + fish + squid, despite having vigorously brushed my teeth and downing 2 mugs worth of herbal + green tea, that I've been taking consistently because of the stomachaches I've been getting a lot lately.
Lets say those stomachaches have costed me soooo much money. So many food that goes out the wrong way. GAHH.
Just received an SMS from Eja. I'm sorry I haven't been replying bebeh! Sila faham that aku takde credit. And when I do, I'll surely reply. InsyaAllah. :-) And she's asking: "Bila nak kurus ni?!" Directed to both of us because lets just say we made a deal that I'd become slimmer when I return to Malaysia, and she'd get slimmer as well. WAHAHA. I'm on the fast track to failure, OBVIOUSLY. Unless there is some miraculous formula to make me lose my annoying thigh fat in less / 2 months.
Which reminds me, for reasons I shall not explicate, that I got angry at someone today. The thing is, I've really been trying to hold back any negative feelings towards anyone lately. But this friend of mine, well for some reason just made me *SNAP! I just. Entahla. Penat sangat with her negativity , lack of optimism and drive. Thats also why I've been pretty much avoiding her, just so I wouldn't lose my temper. Kadang-kadang nak tengok pun taknak. Sounds mean, I know. But haish. Better that than I say something straight to her face that I'm going to regret later, eh?
BTW, a snippet from a friend's blog got me thinking.
Failure is the universe's way of telling you to either try harder or try something else.
Honestly, I've thought about this myself. But... I'm quite scared actually. I'm not a firm believer in destiny / fate and what not, but WHAT IF I *am meant to pursue something else y'know? But right now, I'm just going to ignore all this questions and just try my hardest at redeeming myself. Just because I believe that God summons us to work hard to achieve success, not just wait for it. And also because choosing to believe this unproven theory is just an excuse to be lazy. So it seems.
With that being said, I'm gonna go back to transferring my notes now. Good morning people. :-)
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